For years now, I’ve been wanting to move to the country where neighbors are just out of sight, there is no traffic, and there is open space for the soul!
At this point in my travels I’ve had a revelation. I love the idea of growing my own food, but there are things I would rather spend my time doing. There are things I want to paint, and things I want to write. There are online communities I want to create and foster and imbue with life and energy. there are projects uncountable I want to undertake with my kids, and travels to avail myself of with my husband.
At this moment I want a home that will be most fulfilling for childrearing and for my children themselves. I want cozy and beautiful but not time intensive. I want busy but not hectic. I want every one of us to be pursuing our passions. I want us not tied up with house and yard maintenance, farming or cooking or cleaning. All of those things are good, but when they come at the expense of what you are meant to be doing, the joy of them will rot and life becomes a drudgery.
I want to live close enough to town that we don’t have to drive to get there. And I want it to be a town I LOVE.
I want dance classes and flute lessons for Ada. I want lots of friends–the wonderful, forever, deep-down kind of friends, not mere acquaintances and nice neighbors. And I want my kids to be able to walk to their friends’ houses, and the library, and beautiful parks or creeks, or woods.
I want local farms to buy from or trade with, and for my kids to spend time on.
I want stunning scenery as a backdrop to my life.
I want the kind of culture that is full of theatre troops and homeschool entrepreneurships. Surprising people with varied experiences and conclusions, and new ideas and great, glowing projects that rip across your day or your life with the tremendous energy of their ingenuity. I want diversity and trades, and people to apprentice with.
I’m not describing country life…
I want alternative design and alternative energy. I want sustainability and self-sufficiency. I want the time, money and energy not spent on a mortgage and utilities to be available for crafting and art, for trading with or buying from local artisans, for soul food, and theatre and classes, bright ideas and daring endeavors!
Don’t let anyone say wanting is not a valuable pasttime. It proves the world contains beautiful possibilities and it fuels the human intellect. It is both the reason for and the result of our imaginations. Don’t forget to ask yourself what you want.
Dedicated to Amanda, who is invited to join me anytime. Remember when we had this written on our dormroom wall?
“…the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars…”